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Posted by Zoé Aimee Sateen on Wednesday, April 28th, 2010

AFI Davey Havok - Groezrock Belgium ©2010 Zoé Aimee Sateen

AFI - Groezrock Belgium ©2010 Zoé Aimee Sateen

The end is the beginning is the end
Posted on 2010.04.26 at 09:39
Current Location: Germany
Current Mood: happy

It is indeed the end but I feel better than I could’ve ever hoped.
There were moments of despair, there was the usual breakdown right after the gig as my heart tried to comprehend that this was the last time In years… maybe for good?!
With beautiful (not) red eyes and tearstained cheeks I dragged myself behind the venue only to find out they were parked so far away it’d be imposible to get to them. My heart shattered again, I just wanted 5 seconds to say goodbye.

AFI Hunter Burgan - Groezrock Belgium ©2010 Zoé Aimee Sateen

We realized it was a lost cause and went over to our friends from the crew to watch them load the Stagetruck with heavy hearts.
We got hugs and kisses from Andy, how I’ll miss him, and Narci came over and gave me 4 setlists from tonights show. Perhaps it was easy to see we weren’t how we’d been throughout this tour haha
An hour passed and they’d finished loading so Simon took off, we didn’t really get to say goodbye but at that point I didn’t really care.

We hung around a bit longer and say goodbye to all our friends from the crew but when we get to Narci he tells us that if we stick around a bit longer he’ll bring the boys out to say goodbye.
I have never ever felt such deep love for a person as I did for Narci at that very moment, I was like a second for bowing down at his feet. haha

Adam Carson - Groezrock Belgium ©2010 Zoé Aimee Sateen

It gets colder and colder, darker and darker and for just a few seconds we start to doubt if he’ll actually bring them out.
Alstair comes to say goodbye, we talk a bit to him. Camilla then goes to get money back for a plastic cup and then walking towards us I see very familiar looking people.

As discreetly as possible I’m like “CAMILLA!!!!!” haha
She quickly sees them and hurries back over to me. What met my eyes is something I’ll never forget, something that’s branded into my vision forever.

It all goes by so quickly but all my eyes see is Davey smiling a smile so big that my heart actually felt like it would explode with joy. I’ve never seen him smile so big in my life.
He thanks us, says goodbye and see you next time.

AFI Hunter Burgan ©2010 Zoé Aimee Sateen

Adam puts his hand on my shoulder and I turn around. He hugs me and says “see you next time”
I thank him while looking into those big blue eyes, he’s smiling and looks so happy.

It was such a precious moment, over way too quickly but it was perfect.
My mind was clouded with what I knew would be a deep depression before it but after it… I’m happy. I’m truly happy and I just keep seeing that huge smile we got from Davey… How can you be sad then?! haha

The gig itself was great, too short for my liking but great. The Ramones cover was awesome.
We’d heard them soundcheck it twice but to actually see them performing it was fantastic.

Awww <3 - AFI Groezrock Belgium ©2010 Zoé Aimee Sateen

Again I didn’t get any good pictures at all. I’ve actually surprised myself on this tour, I’ve barely taken any pics at all and when I do they turn out shitty because I don’t concentrate on doing it.

I’m both bummed and happy about it. I would’ve liked better pics but I enjoyed the gigs more.

But… there are still more pics (and videos) coming to you since I haven’t had time or internet the past days. Keep checking in here: ZA’s AFI Tour Journal 2010 Index

Anyway, over it is. I’m sure I could’ve written alot more detailed blogs during it all but I’ve been too tired plus I don’t know how many actually bother to read them anyway.

From a very exhausted Zoé in Düsseldorf….

Ciao :D

You can find links to all of Zoé’s journals and a full gallery of images and videos from ZA’s AFI Tour Journal 2010 here!

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